Ok, i'm back...i noe e things juz bside couldn't navigate, so juz read my blog kaes...hahas, in a not bad mood lahx...haiz...i noe i'm a bitch, suddenly juz found out dat i had attitude quite alot of teachers...hahas and i did quite alot of crazy thingys...like we went to the birdpark and played e splash and got ourselves (mi, simin, yee xien [heys i noe how to spell ur name correctly liao], xue en, serene, bor~~~, huiyu and nath) that's all i remembered, but i noe onli e 1st 4 of us got wet (yah, u can see through it but not xie kaes...). well, we were crazy...but it was cool...today the cheer comp was a drag, totally drag but it came out ok in the end...it was alright, maybe we weren't the best but we did a good job 2o6! And woo~~ a bad news juz came to me, struck mi lyk lightning...mayb not mi but my whole family...hahas...i dunno wat to do...everyone was sloggin so hard and all the bad things juz had to happen...hahas...am i mockin at myself now?? shit, i think i'm goin berserk now...sooner or later...well, the bad news shot too fast, too fast..i dunno how to react, reali...now my real fight comes...should i fight or should i die?? i hate this life... i onli noe how to act happi wen its da worst of times... you wouldn't see mi cry wen i face e worst of times, i onli becomes hyper...so called lyk hui guang fan zhao bahx...you would see mi cry wen i'm under stress but not wen e worst thing hits..lalalala...i think i'm reali diein...i dunno... mayb u would come and attend my funeral some of this daes? so b prepared bahx...dun come and ask mi wat happenend or wat "see ur blog sae until so serious"...i noe..i noe..i'm not sendin some threats or wat but i'm saein wat i feel now...i dunno..i may reali die some of these days... let's juz see wat more games can this life play on mi or with mi i shld sae...i'm a rebellious gal so maybe i would lyk to prove dat i'm not so easily defeated...i dunno...sometimes i juz feel lyk diein...ok let's not talk abt death animore..mayb i would meet my maker (GC song:Fallin away) sumdae..ok cuz i'm listenin to dis song now, so i'm quotin it...

i'm crappy todae...i dunno...everything seems to b fallin apart...i dunno how much or how long i can hold on to...tts's leavin, family probs, sch probs, attitude, all e stupid things, i'm droppin...dat's all, not much reasons to kill myself...i had nothing to sae abt my life...things juz get worse...it wont get better... the horoscopes were juz lies...suan ming were also lies...life juz couldn't get better huh?? i dunno wat to sae, i couldn't curse, what would it help? i noe i'm juz a bitch...it had to b liddat...if i had a chance, i would kill all e ppl i nid to then kill myself and free everyone..i noe diein ish not a freedom but it juz lemme close my eyes frm dis world..i hate to see this life and i hate to live it...hahas..i juz laughin dat how drastic i could get...i noe i'm gettin crazy sumdae...ok, it doesn't matter if u dun understand...it need not be...i can't cry now..it seems so hard so cry now...i dun wan to b weak...i dun wan to b beaten by life so easily...cant i juz defy heaven's will?? cant it juz get better? dun tell mi things will get better cuz no matter how long i wait, another bad thing juz strikes...life had to get worse rites? i reali had nothing to do or sae juz to sit and stare...i dunno..dun ask mi why or anything..i couldn't b bothered...

mayb i dun hate dis life, but i juz hate how it works...dats y..mayb...if i'm not born here..mayb sumwhere where i dun hav to suffer liddat? mayb it's not sufferin but juz probs dat i had to face..juz destined...may b dere would b sumthin betta...mayb i wouldn't live till dat dae...mayb i would pull through...i dunno..i noe i'm contrastin...lyk i said..u dun hav to understand...juz dat i'm crappin..i noe..ok...i tink i wrote too long..okaes..hav to go liaos..dun care abt mi...juz take it dat i'm another depressonist(new word sia...) kaes..jiz yous everyone =) i'm ok..i tink so..