hmmmsss...it's been a long time since i returned!Welcome mi kaes!i'm so sick of dis life...haix... on fri, i tink i hurt my hand n had a fever...suay suay kana wong scold den canot take it liao...i cried...i hate to cry, i cried 3 times in nh, twice all started by wong...wth..and i wonder is it good tao hua yun or wat lahz...keep havin ppl online jioin mi...its lyk wtf...all aged 20+ de ppl lor..bear with my attitude now...dun care about mi if i attitude anyone dis month...i'm in such a foul mood dat i wanted to cut myself again...i thought i could suppress it but it juz became even stronger...ok, make it clear...i reali dun lyk those guys out dere online jioin...its so fan gan...i'm reali so xian..y am i oways e dao mei one?? i dun nid those guys, i juz nid him...but wth, he ish leavin dis year...wat am i gonna do? die? i dunno...so much stress recently...can i juz leave or sumthin liddat...i hate everythin dat ish happenin to mi...bad things reali comes in a row...neverendin...i nid luv...family luv or anithin...but i juz feel so abandoned...might as well cut myself again...i dunno..i tink i cant find my penknife again...haiz..*dies* bb xian diao.. to all those guys out dere online jioin: f*** off! (bear with mi)