wahahahahas. u noe dere's sumthing i found out and ish damn freaking funni. nvm. it doesnt matter loads to mi though. i had been through that in sec 1 and i do realise the hardships u will be receiving in future. i've grown up. if i care a damn about all those negative stuffs in the world, i guess i would be HANGING myself now. yes, i noe dere are sumthings that i realised that we 'must have been' overdoing. and i dun realli care about fame n stuffs. wen i'm given the job, i try my best to do it and i wont want any cock ups in between. that's one of my rules in life. well, if it wasnt fer dis, i wouldnt have been told a workaholic by docs. i'm not the preppy type of ppl, i classify myself as a goth, though i rarely make up like one. i do things by heart. there was once a person who claimed to feel remorseful about not pinning up her hair. i did. i did it by pinning my hair in a whole NEW way! of course, i'm stil proud of it. wahahax, here comes egoistic joanna. i do what i sae. no matter wat, i'm stil freaking sick. 37.4 degrees now.

dey are mi BESTEST BEST frens. dere are sum things i hav to sae. basically, i dun care wat ppl sae abt us. if u cared, trust me, u would hav been called a dog. ooopss, it's dog year ya know? ;) to me, seniors played a serious role. my seniors i shld sae. i nvr brought this topic up before but i guess i hav to sae it now. i hav found the good ppl and 'bad' ppl. i once was framed. misunderstood. fcuking leading the worst life ever. it was they who gave mi dat life and who pulled mi up again. not mani ppl wil experience dat, i seriously noe that kinda feelings. yes, i cried. i was depressed. but guess wat, i wasnt a dog. i'm not taking any sides and this ish not a wat e hell shooting entry. i'm juz sorta showing a disclosed side of my life. if not fer them, i guess i would hav been juz as weak. it's fer them that i'm so strong. thanks though. (no sarcasm. thanks.) why do ya hav to make things to be so complicated? frankly, i dunno. if dey had pinpointed mi at that time, mayb i would hav changed and not take things the rough way. dats ppl u see, DIFFERENCE. a big word. i dun deserve respect cuz i dun realli show respect. if i had showed respect, i wouldnt even be blogging now. i would hav hid and cried somewhere. sorri, i'm not the respect and miss-popular kinda gals. i'm more of myself. dere was once said, the world doesnt revolve around u. i asked, if it doesnt revolve mi, does it revolve around u? ans is the world ish revolving on its own axis. i'm not trying to show a dumb example but that's the point of my blog. if u tried to think, "omg, i'm so bad dat the whole world almost hates mi!" and trying to change urself to suit the ppl ish not my way of things. i do it my way. if i changed, isnt dat too unfair fer mi? take ppl the way dey are. i dun blame anyone fer the hard life i lead, it's the big word again. if others are not able to accept u, dun try to accept them because u are rejecting urself. if the world ish revolving on its own, den i shall take it as it's revolving around mi cuz it's my life. i take charge.

be urself n u dun hav to care abt others. that's the rationale (wonder if i spelled correctly.) tats to my dearie poopoos of course. i luv them. mayb one dae we wil separate but it's not the long-term, it's the heart u put in. once u nvr regret, u nvr do sumthin bad to ur heart (no heart disease aye =)). i stil luv my hair n i dun regret. cuz it's juz so DAMN NICE larhx. i finalli realise a way how to pin it nicely at the studio. hahas. i dun expect anyone to listen to mi nor anything cuz i seriously understand dat i dun deserve it. cuz i dun listen to others either. even if the whole world ish unhappi wif mi, i'm happi wif myself and pretties. that's my way of rebellion, i dun do rebellion the way normal ppl see as. i rebel in my way. REBELLION. MY WAY. that's so egoistic of mi. wahahax. end of my stupid entry. lemme clarify again, dis ish not a SHOOTING entry, it's MY LIFE entry.