heys! dats e song...Hold On by Good Charlotte...GC is my god, they rox! i lyk their songs veri much but i only got the Chronicles of Life and Death CD (frm Jeanette)...hmmm, i would recommend S.O.S. and Predictable..dis are my favourite songs...i feel more qing song now...at least i can put down things easily...but i think i'm stil a constant self-harmer...hahas, wen i cried dat dae, i tried to find a pen-knife to cut myself but i onli found scissors...sad case..my mum was smart to keep it locked sumwhere..i noe wat i'm doing, its juz i'm so stressed up...juz let blood flow wil b e best choice...i'm back wif da rebellious n depressed but light-hearted self(contrastin eh?)...i will stil do drastic thingys(not veri sure wat r dey) ba...i might as well dedicate my life to music...well, although cyn told mi she tink we wont make it big but i believe dat one dae we wil de! i noe its sorta hard...but believe: lao tian ye hui wei na xie ceng jing fu chu nu li de ren, da qi yi ge jiao ou yu de qiao liang, rang ta men yu xing fu zai ci xiang yu! (my msn nick) dats wat i oways tell xe..
i wanna b a goth..dey rox! i tink i'm gettin crazier everydae...yea! todae i'm goin 4 my elect guitar lesson wif yee xian le!! happi sia..but reali, i haven revise 4 my bio test...so i dun care, juz try mi best...i wanna be a GOTH!!! i'm crazy...but i feel happi = crazy...hmmm...i dunno wat i'm writin...i wanna mit 8sis...i'm sorry dat i didnt turn up for e last mitin...sorri...i noe jie ish angry wif mi( see, now he didnt even call mi)...sorri...haiz...sorri ehx...*depression overwhelms me* wenever i tink of dis...sorri lahz..but he wont see my blog...so no point saein sorri...cyn...
so dats all 4 todae, its 10.44am now...gonna do geo hw n revise bio liao...one last thingy to add: i hate previous him n i dun wanna mit him...he ish e suckiest guy i ever seen...+P take mi as a rude/rough/rebellious gal, anytin u sae..argh!! P.s...its not gonna affect my happi mood todae..
Hepi june hols (its near!)
heyz!! it's been a long long long time since i had updated ma blog...now i'm back wif a new self i guess...hmm...he is a much better person den previous him, at least he didnt avoid mi...we r stil frens...i finally understand, somthins are juz not meant to be...i decided to give up, really giv up and wish him all da best! :)) jia you!! yea, feelin betar now..i'm pickin up electric guitar now and it rocks!! inspired by Good Charlotte bahz...dunno..hu ran hav dis idea...i guess i'm despo in lookin 4 a part time job bahz...askin anqi n simin to go wif mi n yee xian's cousin to help bahz..dey r all sweet n nice n cute frens...u noe..juz a bit xie lah =P now ish everydae meng eat fruits and milk to jian fei cum sheng qian...lol...cultural pot. rox! guess wat, oai oai oai brought up to its standard...we r e best!! zhulin oso!! we r e highlight of e nights! hahas...at least feelin abit eased now,den rite cumin ish bio test (tues)...not even prepared...but i promise i wont flunk...god pls dun lemme flunk again..den ish PTC,chalet n meetin...argh..i hate e meetin,i juz dun wanna see mk and da previous him...he ish so zhuai wen he noes i lyk him in e past...he sux...sae wat: " she so rough...no matter wat, i wil nvr lyk her in dis life etc" he zhuai ge pi lor..fuck...reali regretted 4 lykin him but i dun regret for lykin da him in sec sch..he ish reali veri nice...(back to point) i dun wanna mit him, ltr he wil b zhuai again 1 lor...despo to find substitute bf to go spike him...how to find? shitty lor...but nvm...yi qie sui yuan bahz..i dun wanna care..
haiz...too much stress lately...money,studies, frens n thank god no more gan qing shang de wen ti le..so left dis to b sloved...i dunno wat am i gonna do...june hols mean nothing to mi, we stil hav 2 cum back 4 88th anni. practs no big deal...juz da whole hols...nahz...n my own band wif cyn n hj lyk dun hav ani zhao luo....8 sis de relations seems to b tan-ner den b4...i dunno, may da fault onli lies wif mi, mayb i m da 1 who ish yi shen yi gui-ing..hahas, the time wil cum 4 everythin to b solved, juz HOLD ON! ;))
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