woots. i'm here to update. lotsa things had happened to me e pass few months and guess it made me realise alot of things. yeah, i was addicted to mahjong. i tried to numb myself using that but guess it didnt work out anyway. so, i'm back to my old self again. i was kept in the dark for alot of things. till now, i practically hav no idea of what is happening around me and i guess i would hav to decipher on what i see and hear, though i cant make sure of whether it is true or not. well, gotta work hard for end of year, cant be slacking dat much, if not i can forget about getting promoted. sorta on a neutral line now, cant b smilin n cant b frowning. i dunno wat to do. feel lyk ostracising myself from everyone. dat's y i got so much negative reactions frm dem. but i couldnt giv a damn. i cant even fix my own probs. so tired. i dunno wat to do. i feel as if i'm lost. but guess no one could help anyway. anayway, loads of luck for eoy ppl. jiayous. =1